Emotionally unstable personality Disorder #BPD

Hello there 😀. It’s wedensday 19/3/25 the in sunny Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 🥶😂😂. Ok I’ve been going to write about #Eupd in detail for some time but i was too busy working on recovery and planning ahead for my up coming you tube channel that will be based on Helping parents of autistic children. I also wasn’t sure where to start. “ as id paused so many times”

I started on this a while ago and did a rough draft, had it up and pulled it back down then i hit a few speed bumps along the way. “ In a galaxy far far away” 😀

Minor not critical thankfully 😀 and i am now permanently on a smooth path and not anywhere near that horrible rocky road!! ❤️‍🩹 so here goes .

I myself suffer from EUPD (F60.3) explosive type so I think that’s where I’ll start as loved ones all over the world must be demented living with a partner or loved one with this illness.

The first thing I’ll say is this , hand on heart. Borderlines only lash out at people they love ( makes no sense) “I know” however ? I honestly hope by the end of this I help to make sense of it for you.

Right !! Hopefully this doesn't take too long to read, and that it also makes a lot of sense to a lot of people looking for an insight to "EUPD " Emotionally unstable personality disorder.

Or BPD "Borderline personality disorder" ok here goes !!

Try and Imagine someone with a personality that is best compared to a walking nuclear bomb 💣 literally any word or minor thing or if they feel criticism it could cause an explosion , and i mean like a volcanic eruption 🌋 like nobody’s ever seen or heard .

I’d imagine a lot of loved ones will associate it with walking on eggshells or trying to navigate their way through a minefield.

NOW !!! There is a honestly a reason for this. Let me make it clear and reassure you, the person you love does “LOVE YOU!!” That’s the important part right 😁

Although I can honestly imagine what must go through a persons mind when someone they care so much about is acting so erratic. Let’s ask why is it that they act this way?

You may have heard the term "trigger" but you are not sure what it means? Usually, a trigger refers to some event that brings on a major exacerbation of BPD symptoms.

Basically it’s a person with borderline personality disorder "overreacting" to something extremely minor and blowing a complete and utter fucking fuse 💥 , sound familiar?

People with BPD have a set of emotional triggers that cause them to spin out, explode or meltdown.Even become mute and withdrawn for days afterwards.

Borderline’s can act extremely out of character and this kind of reaction and behaviour tends to become even worse with alcohol or substance misuse it’s like literally pouring petrol/ ⛽️ or Gasoline “ for my 🇺🇸 readers”on to a bonfire 🔥

People with BPD are extremely sensitive to stress, so stressful situations activate symptoms related to the condition. People who live in relationships with those who have borderline personality disorder feel like they can never be sure as to what to expect next from their loved one.

“ I can honestly understand why someone would think that way”

As for me myself? I guess i can be extremely hard to live with sometimes.

It can probably feel like you’re loved one is constantly attacking you and jumping down your throat that’s “an illusion” i will explain the reason why.

Most of the time they are just feeling distressed and trying but struggling to express how they are feeling.

People who are around those with BPD often do feel attacked “personally” and they feel like they are on the constant defense. People will usually react to their tone of voice more than the person’s actual words.

People in general usually react strongly to people with BPD because like i says it can seem like they are being personally attacked. Most often in fact I'd go as far to say 99.9% of the time , they aren't intending to attack you!

Admittedly yes it can really seem that way. This rings true because the person with " BPD" aint being mindful of the tone, volume, speed, etc of what they are saying so it could come across as aggressive .

It's important to listen to the actual content of what a person with BPD is saying rather than the other aspects of communication.

When someone with #BPD is overwhelmed then Feelings become facts. This is down to emotional dysregulation & how their brain processes information.

People who live with “BPD”function from the emotional aspect of the brain. They literally search their feelings at any given moment to help them make decisions or navigate life.

As we know, both myself and you the " reader" 😁 emotions can change as quickly as the weather and emotions are not fact based. But to a borderline, all their feelings are facts.

To them, if it feels true, then it is true. Feelings are facts at that moment in time. Until they calm down/cool off.

What can be frustrating about this? There are probably dozens of times or more that they followed their emotions only to later backed down on how they were feeling and have apologised for their actions , as what they were feeling at that moment in time has now turned out to be a complete overreaction on their part and they recognise this.

However instead of learning from this and building their insight and placing less trust in their emotions, they continue to operate this way. This can be extremely frustrating to everyone involved.

One of the things that must drive loved ones crazy is that "Their loved ones" behaviours don't make sense. The explanation for this is extremely simple. They don't act, behave or make decisions based on logic or reason.

Everything they do or say is emotionally based. They follow whatever their emotions are telling them to do in that moment. Anyones thoughts and emotions can change.

The clear difference is a borderline can literally change in a heartbeat and usually do, many times throughout every single day, we are talking from , happy, angry , to sad to laughter inside 20 mins the behavior of a BPD changes minute by minute and will be in direct contradiction of what they were doing just a little while ago.

They will talk and act according to whatever strong emotion they are experiencing in that moment in time. people with borderline feel a significant amount of guilt for their uncontrollable erratic behaviour.

It’s important to remember they can’t control their emotions and me being a fellow sufferer? I know how guilty I can be when I’ve said stuff out of spite that I never meant . Someone i knew was concerned about their weight, in the heat of battle i said they had the cholesterol of a fried egg or words to that effect .

Did i mean it ? I most certainly did not that is the thing nobody believes you , why would they after such a hurtful insult.

The guilt and shame and invisible pain has over the years led me down some dark paths of strong suicidal ideations brought about by such incidents.

Thankfully after many years I'm learning how to handle my emotions and not act on impulse.

Please never in the heat of the moment or an argument DARE a borderline to do something these people are NOT attention seeking the chances are they will carry out their threat. Borderlines have the highest suicide rate in the world . So pay attention if a loved one is being distant .

The GREAT thing is and I'm sure if you know someone with BPD is that - They are also fiercely loyal people and loving and can be extremely fun , I think their quirky ways and unpredictable nature is what makes people so attracted to them in the first place.

Afterwards ? Based on my own experiences perhaps 3 months ? the BPD surfaces and their new partner questions if it’s the same person that they met or fell in love with ?

The resounding answer is YES !!!! . But us borderlines are hard work. I sincerely hope this blog helps someone out there understand and have a better insight to BPD .

Minor occurrences can prompt a major reaction, the result of a highly sensitive nature.

Every comment must be scrutinised. I will dissect what was said, why it was said, then I consider the many different meanings that can be attached to it.

I even analyse the tone of a person’s voice and body language.

I can become distressed easily and it sometimes takes me days to "return to baseline". “normal mood” This can be triggered by something which someone else may not have even have noticed.

"It's like my mind is a laptop with numerous tabs popping up at once”. Every tab must be looked at, there's no such thing as just forget about it. I can't" do it ,I hold grudges for days.

I hope this has given someone an insight. And thanks for taking the time to read oh and if you identify with anything I've written go & see your GP❤️ best wishes Joe. If you relate to this please share my blog as its a misunderstood illness.

I hope this helps people have a better understanding of BPD.

Best wishes Joe~ p.s

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